My Sanctuary

I will be the first person in this world to admit I have countless faults that in another lifetime I may not have had the strength to forgive, nor overcome. Some of the most difficult battles I’ve been faced with have been brought into this world by me, myself, and I — some of which I’ve overcome successfully, and some of which I’m still trying to navigate through.

I’ve been that person & athlete who has blamed others. I’ve been that person & athlete who has blamed myself — who has been my own worst critic. I’ve been that person & athlete who has asked Him, “What is my greater purpose?” I’ve been that person & athlete who has asked Him, “Why me?”.

I’ve been that person & athlete who has forgiven too easily. I’ve been that person & athlete who hasn’t forgiven enough. I’ve been that person & athlete who has doubted myself. I’ve been that person & athlete who has doubted life; who has doubted Him.

I was wrong to, and I’ve never been so happy to be so wrong.

I don’t know about the rest of the world but in my world, all of the terrifying and confusing curveballs have been thrown at me at the exact same time, forcing me to navigate through all of my options with no sense of direction as to what the right choice or path is; what the right choice or path will be. Forcing me to navigate through this new shade of grey, forcing me to defend myself, my actions, and my choices; to believe in myself, my actions, and my choices.

Funny how the world works, as if life continuously challenges us by throwing these unexpected curveballs, knowing that the next move it makes in our ongoing match will help us find our greater purpose — it will, and it does.

I’ve been that person & athlete who has suffered — but who has overcome. I’ve been that person & athlete who has lost — but who has found grace and passion. I’ve been that person & athlete who has doubted everything and anyone — but who has learned to trust in something more, something greater.

I’ve become the person & athlete who forgives and does not dwell. I’ve become the person & athlete who believes and does not doubt. I’ve become the person & athlete who lives for my greater purpose in this never-ending, game-set-match of life’s to-be-continued journey.